Babalon's Cup

Duality

Sun, 30 Sep 2007 16:06:46 GMT

Duality Formed

In the beginning duality formed
Down shot the fire snake
Let fire, air, water, earth, be adored
Into exsistance did we fall

The fruit of the tree is consumed
The sephroth illuminated
Its realized in manifest malkuth
Here the opposites collide

In Ain-soph lie them, not being
None in the total- nonexsists
We split in two, look back seeing
The trinity, the whole, ultimate equasion

One, none, and all, are we
Tetragramaton starts the clock
Its set is whole, its number, three
Still of holy life it breeds

Merry Samhain

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 09:17:40 GMT

The harvest moon is here. THe seeds we have planted have bore there fruit. WE now reap what we have sewn. The fruits of the garden of our thoughts and action baring the the fruit of our lives for yet another year. It is hard work during the last part of the harvest. Plucking out the weeds. Tending the delicate and budding fruit. but now it has reached its maturity. Hail the Queen!! HAil the Mother!!!! Hail the Whore!!!

Whats in your garden?????

THX 1138 a must see movie

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 22:31:39 GMT

I was as at the cash register. Upon first glance at the movie rack my mind was immediately captivated by a simple picture of a man dressed in white. Three tall forms dressed in black, apparently authority figures, prodding this man with long black poles….not those kind…..anyway, I am sure it was the first movie I noticed, as proof, I present the fact that it was the only movie I noticed. Actually let me restate that, it wasn’t a movie at all it was an “experience”, as George Lucas the producer of the film expressed.
At the start of the film, seemingly disjointed images flood the screen amidst a backdrop of sound produced emotion. As your senses become surrounded by this sterile world, one begins to think about the likeness this world has to our very own; a framework of our capitalistic and herded society, though in its most advanced form.
This movie is not for the faint of heart nor weak of thought. It drives one to the limit of our programming and gives us a the mirror image that we so desperately need to see of ourselves as a society, in order to truly realize what kind of world we undoubtedly live in. I cant truly express to you how hard it really is to watch this movie all the way to the end. It is an arduous journey through the truth in such an abstract manner, that it hits every nerve.
THX 1138 was produced in 1970 then Re-mastered in 1998 as a Warner Brothers picture. The web page for this movie is http://www.thx1138movie.com , where you cannot only get more information on the movie but also speak with OMM (its?)self.

Dedicated Temple space

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 04:04:46 GMT

So Im making a dedicated temple space now. However I cant seem to find the documentation on the makings of the temple. Not looking to do a recreation of solomons temple but an idea on dementions for general practice would be nice. Oh well I will have to keep looking. Until then beware of the lair with the fine hair.

In the mist of stormy nights
When the lightning hath its strike
There apon the desert sands
Lies the woman in the man

Before the time stood still that day
The fornication shushed away
Unholy innocents decree
A choice was made to sin unto thee

The hour of dawn has come and gone
The twilight hour now quickly therapon
Hesitate now in thine steps
To quickly are thee to reserect

While the furnace flames draw near
Quivering are thee now in dispare
Forget yourself now Elohim
Give it all to the Goddess within Thee.

Boy has this been an adventer

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 05:16:47 GMT

So I decide to become a plus size sex symbol in a self made right to the Scarlet Woman herself, and with every privlidge comes a responsibility. How am I to make myself worthy of this feat without compleatly falling apart. Its not what is going on outside, mind you, but up here *knoks on my head*. Well I had started practicing the Greater Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram in conjunction with the lesser only days before my departure to LA. I had no Idea what a toll my absence in banishing at home would take on my household. Not only that but I was unable to practice everyday as has been my usual habbit for the last two months. I missed I belive it was three days out of the seven I was there. When I returned home it was amazing how disorderly my home was. I had went through great strides to balance the energy (unartaficially) before I left, but it seems that I should have diverted some of my energy during banishings towards my homestead (which anyone in there right mind would have done) but then again hindsite is twenty-twenty vision. So now I am in the process of cleaning house and it seems that whatever higher source is guiding me on this expedition is not allowing me to become distracted with more work before I am ready. So it looks like I have much practice to accomplish before this issue gets out. It is amazing when I think of the amount of energy I will be able to harness from other people. The only problem with the learn as you go technique is a person is liable to make allot of mistakes. But then again I am a person who learns best from mistakes I imagine.
Now about the trip...It was so wonderful. Before we even get to the hotel the two other models and I are taken to get our nails and toes done. Real spa treatments and all. Then we were taken to do a little shopping to find the perfect outfits for the shoot. Afterward we were taken to lunch where we ate our fill. At that point we were all kinda bushed from our flights and all the excitement so we went to go get our rooms. one block from the walk of stars in Hollywood...Whoot!. After we had gotten a little rest we were taken to a BBW strip club in Hollywood which was interesting to say the least. If you didnt know big girls thought of themselves as sexy, after that experience you would agree that they were. when we had had our fill of fun we went for dinner and then off to bed to get ready for the shoot the next morning. When we arrived on the set I was truly amazed. They had rented one of thoes half a million dollar houses in the hills to do the shoot at. Then in came wardrobe hair and makeup. We all had the works!!!! It was so much fun!! The shots came out great, and I am really excited about what it is going to look like in the magazine.
So as you can see I have had my hands fuuuuuullllllll. Well its time for me to banish now. More on this later.

IM back!!!

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 23:17:46 GMT

OKay so Ive been back for three days now. My head is still swimming. I am acutally going to be featured in the november issue of this magazine!!!! I cant believe it. Somehow I managed to banish 4 of the six days I was gone. figuring out direction for me was a bit of a challenge however so next time im packing a compass....more later.

Bodacious

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 02:54:35 GMT

So I forget to banish for one day and my hubby almost runs a red light, I get stood up by three different friend who were supposed to come to a cookout because of grave emergincies (one car crash, one aunt that went to the hospital, and a really bad domestic dispute). Needless to say Im never doing that again. So....Im in, I will be modeling for Bodacious magazine which is like playboy for fat chicks...Im soooooooooooooooo excited. I get to go to LA and everything. Band practice is going great. Asa and I have created a song about a cannibal named chupy...its to die for....ROTFL. Anyway we have a total of five songs done and accounted for in a very tangible form. The first is about dead homeless people, the second is about fighting for our mental freedom from the prosecutions of the infected media, as is the third, however completely different sound for each. And the fith is a look back on 50's music with a nice bit'o distortion.
Im going through a weight rebellion with this whole thing. Even my dad is pressuring me to lose weight and I cant help thinking screw you to myself. At any rate I do need to get into shape, I just hate facist people. Look back to victorian days and a much plumper individual was thought to be "sexy".
I am being slightly more productive which is a very good sign. This slump had to end sooner or later. I cant stand how lazy I have been feeling.
I think this modeling thing is helping, because I can draw good energy from many sources now, without even knowing them. It increases the level of energy I am able to draw every time.

A new frontier

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 07:02:16 GMT

Well in my bordom of the last few months I came across a local add for BBW models. Being that I have always had a thing for the spotlight how couold I resist??? So I talk to the lady and schedule a shoot. I wast sure how I was going to feel I mean I thought for sure I would feel like some kind of slut. Instead I felt a great release and almost a surge of relief. It felt so nice posing in from of the cameras. Especially since the photographer was enjoying looking at my half naked body so much. The whole experince has given me a sense of empowerment that I have hardly felt before. In my daily practice I have begun to understand a different part that I may have in the great work. It looks like I might be travelling all over the country to do BBW modeling. I am so excited.

The song of Nuit

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 04:29:18 GMT

Babalon has arrived
In the whispers of the night.
The whore has returned
Bearing the wings of RA’s hidden flight

The lightning form of oneness
Cumming into all that is I
To love is to Will in the absolute
To die is to love under the desert sky

Free from the conforms of lies
And in truth does the her debauchery lye
To hell with your demond pride
I belong to all, that none can chide

Taste the nectar of my brilliance
Feel the essence of my soul
Know the path of true beliving
Do and Will for all to behold

The scarlet woman is here
Invoked now within me
A virgin yet a mother true
A harlot for all to see

Babalon has arrived
In the whispers of the night.
The whore has returned
Bearing the wings of RA’s hidden flight

Well Fuck!!!!!

Thu, 07 Sep 2006 00:43:14 GMT

I want to scream at the top of my lungs. I am so frustraited at life. Frustraited at everything going on in the world. Im angry at the way people haphazardly go through life not caring and doing whatever the "cool" people tell them.

Im sick and tired of people prejudging and then denying. Im even sicker of the people who dont even realize they are doing it. Why oh why in the year 2000 fucking 6 do I have to climb up hill to get recognition. Fuck blonds, fuck skinny people, fuck popular people, fuck people who think so'n'so needs a makeover, fuck the people who play into their bullshit, fuck sexists, fuck idiots, fuck people who think they are soooo much smarter than someone else because a piece of paper they cheated to get tells them so. Fuck liars, fuck haters, fuck players, fuck people who cant fucking speak proper fucking english, fuck people who all of a sudden stop speaking proper english because they are talking to me. Fuck people who have their heads in their asses, fuck people who put others heads in their asses, fuck advertisments, fuck MTV, fuck tv, fuck the media, fuck bias, fuck peoples uneducated moneyhungry political views, and most of all, fuck people who cant take the critisim needed to better themselves and help others.

Still banishing everyday, it helps. I dont think I could tolerate myself if I didnt. Being mostly isolated from the world around me makes me about as much of an observer as anything. It seems I will always be on the outside looking in.

On a more positive note, free yoursleves from social misconceptions. Dont allow yourself to be a slave of your senses. Become the master over yourself and you can lead many. I write this to myself as much as anyone who might read it. I will love myself if it is the last thing I do.

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 00:59:02 GMT

keep the monkey men at the door
the ones who know dont want them anymore
Its time to bring the truth to light
in the darkness lies the cares of the night

to thoes who never knew their fate
they made thier own and will never wait
carry the dtars apon the backs of the shit bugs
the most humble reap the rewards of the mighty

IN the end it is none that stumble
deeper still is the vision that stills
Noone cared about the fairys flight
as it ended in sadness and faded out of sight

be careful the wolves are on the prowel
though vows unbroken will never punish
you seek to torment me it is your jelousy which binds you

free yourself from your hatred
for me a temporary set back
for you still more you must hate when you look within

patience is our hope
understanding our sword
love is the Law
and none will know.

Believe in life, truth and love.
know the secrets of both below and above

there is no more that can be done unless you do
the maddness will surly come for you.

Wicker Man????

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 00:52:23 GMT

I just finnished watching The Wicker Man remake. If you have not yet seen it I assure you it is not worth seeing. I did enjoy the fact that I am probabaly the only mother of a two month old that could actually take her daughter to a movie, sit through the whole thing and enjoy it.
Back to the movie. Well the only thing about this movie that even closly relates to the original is that a man comes to the island looking for a missing girl and ends up burnt. The whos, whys, and hows, are almost all different, to the point it didnt even make sense. I mean tell me, what LA cop do you know wears elbow pads on his suit jacket. It was an excuse to watch cage punch the shit out of two women I belive promoting violence towards women. It also completely alters the balance that exsists in paganism making it seem that it was woman against man. The fact that woman won in the end is nice and all, but women in our pure form of earth religion believe in a balance. The movie was twisted by women hating, pagan hating, christians who wanted an excute to put their little girls in an institution if they caught them studying a wicca book. In the original the guy who came to the island was a snobby christian who thought he was "so much better than these heathans". He had no other tie to the community. Also in the origional the God-Goddes aspects were balanced in a healthy manner to be respected by anyone who didnt have their own shovanistic views. Another thing is in this new movie...(im starting to not like using the term remake)there is a big thing about bees, and the queen bee killing the drone that ruined the harvest......Nothing remotely close to the original. I was very dissapointed. I thought with all the new technology it would be nice to see the original movie with more high-tech production materials. Not some half-baked offshoot. I wish I would have waited for it to hit the dollar movie now...oh well...enough ranting for me.....

busy busy busy

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 21:45:49 GMT

I think I may have missed a couple of day. The good thing is I continue to banish daily!!!! It continues to have more and more of an effect. House is a mess though... Musical creativity is going well. The band seems to be comming along nicely. I am very happy about that fact. Asa (the guitarist) had the same birthday as I did. We didnt do anything except practice. Music is both of our's passion. WEll

Love is the Law, Love under Will.

Thank you for the B-Day well wishes!!!!!

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 05:57:32 GMT

THough my b-day was uneventful I had the day off as well as opportunity to have band practice which was cool. My hubby got me a really neat dead sea nail kit and soap!!! I stayed sober all birthday too!!!

Happy birthday to me

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 21:28:50 GMT

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Fucking Birthday to Me!!!!!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 14:58:58 GMT

I dont want to get older. but allas I am.

Motto

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 05:45:52 GMT

With a name like Bedajii it is hard for me to come up with somthing that is as powerful in meaning for me as my birth name. Until today. I wonder how many Soror Agape's there are??? I think I might make that my motto. Love is the Law

images that come up when you yahoo Occult

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 05:25:31 GMT

Mason sybology??? I think the guy on this site does these as tatoos Original Artwork...no not by me.... A very handome picture of

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Mama Fu

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 04:30:56 GMT

One thing I learned in life is that a strong woman can change the outcome of anything. Binah be with me this night as I preform amy banishing.
My husband and I came within a millimeter of breaking it off. There were some very negative forces being directed towards My family. I owe most of the success of the last few days to Mr. Greenfield. He is a revolutionary that will make the comming of the new aeon of the OTO. As contriversial as that sounds, I say Do what thou Wilt shall be the whole of the Law. LOVE IS THE LAW, LOVE UNDER WILL. AGAPE. There is true strength in Love and without it as your foundation the Will will crumble into nothingness. That is why Love is Under Will it supports WIll. Agape holds up Will and says behold, THIS, is Loves inner desire. Women, be careful what you do. Every woman is a mother in one way or another, even before she conceives. I think in reguards to motherhood it is safe to say with responsibility, comes responsibility. Thank you Love. Thank you so much. Truly the name of the most high is LOVE. For it is truly the greatest force of all.

My LBRP's are getting stronger. As is my WIll. somthing happend these last two days that completely saved us. Thank you LOVE.

Ever feel like you are reuniting with someone you have lost long ago????

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 07:18:40 GMT

Its not everyday you meet someone you have met before in another life. It is even rarer that a person would realize it an interesting past life regression website . According to this, and other websites I visited on the subject, past life regression therapy is mostly used to help solve a problem one is curently going through. Helping one to find the root cause of this problem. Now here is a very interesting site that gave me goose bumps as far as a past life prediction goes. Wouldnt have a clue on how accurate it is though. There are no coincidences. Everything is as it should be (a native american proverb).

A hand

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 15:03:50 GMT

There are tiimes in life when all one can do is be greatful. Well I have been banishing everyday now. I love that ritual, so simple yet.... I can usually generate a little heat and make myself tingle. Y birthday is comming up soon. I am a hermit though so I really dont do parties. Maybe Ill creep to the store and get somthing to drink....Pina Colada or somthing. My hubbie got me a beautiful Corsett for my B-Day already. Its black and laces up in the back. I have to admit that is the most he has ever spent on a birthday preasant for me!!!!!!!!!! Im so happy. Im off today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

International Film

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 14:54:51 GMT

I love asian film. The Prisoner, and Internal affairs are the most recent two that I have watched. They are excellently written with a plot to rival classic movies, but with better acting. Another very good flick is a British drama called Layer Cake. I dont recommend these movies unless you like to do a little brain work to keep up with the plot.

This is me getting blown up

Tue, 15 Aug 2006 14:48:55 GMT

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There are few things that bring true happieness in this world

Sun, 13 Aug 2006 04:11:01 GMT

Of them is giving Love (agape), and being Loved (agape). It does exsist in this world. I wish to fight to the death to preserve that which is Love. Well after doing the LBRP last night I went to pose for my hubby. Nothing came of that but he suggested I try again tody....I really dont feel up to it to tell you truth.......I know Im under attack. For a chain with such a weak link you would think I would keep my mouth shut. But allas it has been proven, I am a glutten for punishment. Let Nuit be strong about me, let her darkness overcome me and the light of Ra-Hoor-Kuit rise within.

Heres an interesting article

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 22:50:41 GMT

The Rise of the Fith Reich